sometimes... everything just seems harder than it is
sometimes I want people - sometimes I can't stand to have anyone around me
sometimes the nice things you say get twisted before they reach me
and by that time they are so sharp that they cut like knives.
sometimes i just wish everything were different
that i was one of those people who could actually be happy
someone who knew what they wanted
who had a sense of accomplishment, and knew what they were good at
most of the time i just wish I was anyone but me.

There, there, baby
It’s just text book stuff
It’s in the ABC of growing up
Now, now, darlin’
Oh, don’t kill yourself
'Cause none of us were angels
And you know I love you, yeah

Remember when it rained...

and so - we are headed back to school.

thats all i have to say about that

the end.

And true, that may seem like a stretch

but its thoughts like these that catch
my troubled head when youre away
and when I'm miss you to death.
-Such Great Heights- Iron and Wine

Hello lovely xanga-ers! If there are any of you still out there. I'm reporting here from Arizona. I had an amazing time in California- San Jose in particular. Convention was a blast! And though I didn't gain all that much "spiritual knowledge" from the week I DID have an incredible spiritual high, and I really enjoyed listening to many of the speakers! And being out there with all those friends and other teens from all over the US and Canada was just a great great experience. After that my family picked me up and we've been being all touristy for the last week, and will continue to be so for another week or so to come. We first went to San Fransico, where we saw Botanical Gardens, The Golden Gate Bridge, and a wax museum. Then We camped at Lake Tahoe (where we had bears in our camp trying to get in our van and food) and then at Yosemite where we splashed around in the river. Then we went back to a hotel and showered and spent the next day in HOLLYWOOD touring around Universal Studios and watching EVAN ALMIGHTY in the cinema there. And then today we spent many MANY hours in the van driving from california here to Arizona so that we can go to the Grand Canyon tomorrow.

well my dad is whining that i am still on his computer. so i must depart. Goodbye All! I miss you!!!<3jenn

Californiaaa - CALIFORNIA! here we cooooooome!

Off to San Jose. And then gone with the family for 2 weeks after that. Give me a call it would be much appreciated.

Please - Baby Please
Open your heart
and catch my disease

Intelligence +PLUS+ character. That is the point of education.

 -Martin Luther King Jr.

Wow. The long awaited summer has finally come! And how do I feel? Bored and lonely! Well... not all the time. But the majority of it i do. Is this what I wait for thru the whole school year? Well I guess that the majority of my school year isn't really spent waiting for summer. I am one of those nerd types that really does enjoy school, if not only for social time. EMHS sometimes seems like more of a home to me than my own house! Now that is what is really sad. But! the last couple weeks have been very stressful and strenuous (check out the alliteration) and it is most definetly time for a much needed break from it all. I just wish that i could have friends and others surrounding me the whole time. Oh well, I'll learn to love my solitude and my alone moments.

This weekend has been good, filled with graduation events (CONGRATS!) and random trips out - or in. Tonight i had some much needed conversations and laughter and i feel 100% better because if it. Its amazing to me how i can feel so much better and so relieved after not even knowing that i'd been down at all. Maybe i'm just crazy. But sparkling cider helps even that! hahah

Well - its late. Even for me on a summer night. I'm going to go read for a bit and then drift off to a heavenly sleep that will NOT be disrupted in the early morning hours by a shrieking alarm clock.

much love my dearests.

jenn